Dead-Inside

Tear My Body Apart

I want you to recreate your every dark and dirty fantasies with me even though it hurts.

Today

Today started out as a melancholy day for me because while being happy conversing with my love of my life. I felt that something wasn’t right. My world has been offset. I felt like i was pushing her away because i was scared to deal with what was coming. a big change in my life. Going off to college while still wanting to hold on to highschool. I realized something about me today. I get attached very easy and it leaves me vulnerable and able to get hurt thankfully my loving wife viannie is always there to make things better. I am so glad i got to see her today and hopefully her mom will trust me and her again,  because i think it will happen. When she sings to me it gets me so over whelmed that i have tears of joy.

I am Going To Kill My Self

I hate it when my gf ask me to come home early and then she doesn’t fucking talk to me…i can’t even that shit gets me dumb tight.

Lana Del Ray

Listen to Lana Del ray Thinkning about the time at the great lawn. I love my wife 

Lana Del Ray

Listen to Lana Del Ray thinking of my wife

My Gf Broke up with me today…..it scared me…..i don’t get scared often…then she laughed….i cried inside.

If she still likes a then she can’t fully love b

Tonight.

My ex messaged me on facebook like 50 times asking how i was doing… i finally i am fine. I asked why she was talking to me. She told me because was thinking about how cute we used to be and how she misses that. She regrets cheating on me. I told her i have a gf that i really love. She congratulated me and said Viannie is a lucky girl to have such a sweet and caring bf.  

this is the third time one of my ex’s has hmu this week

i wanna talk to my gf…. she isn’t replying 

..im just a needy person….

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